Today I am coming to you from a place where I need to be freed from, a place of deep hurt.  I am talking about loosing somebody close to you. Even though you know you will be reunited with them at some stage, the hurt and missing just doesn't go away.  I also know from my intuition that my dad needs me to let go of him for him to find complete peace and happiness in the afterlife.  There is nothing I want more, but I just can't let go of the missing part at all.

I received the following scripture today, which lead me to the thought for this blog today.  I miss my dad every day the whole day, but receiving this scripture, which my father received from our priest on his deathbed, makes it clear that it is time to clear my mind about this.  In the process I might just help somebody else dealing with the same hurt and struggle of acceptance of this specific challenge we all have to face in our lives at some stage or other.

On 11 July 2011, after 10 years of fighting the dreaded disease...cancer..., my father past away.  It was the hardest day of my entire life.  My words or little white lie to him, saying that he should go where he could be healthy again, without all of the pain and the suffering with his Heavenly Father.  He was in a coma already, but when I spoke to him or whispered in his ear he reacted by pressing my hand.  I told him that he should not worry about me I would be fine without him.  Nothing can or could have been further from the truth...

I had such a severe migraine that whole day, but nothing could get me away from there.  I just had to be with him.  I have never had a problem with sweating in my life.  Eventually, I could not tolerate the smell of the fluid that I was sweating on that day anymore.  I was scared to leave and just go take a shower get dressed in something fresh and come back.  The oncologist also told me that they mostly just wait until they are alone and then they pass over.  I had all of this in the back of my mind, but I also knew that I would not be able to drive after he had gone and I came to the hospital alone, so I needed to get the car home and also take my mother home who also is sickly and could not stand up straight anymore.  This after 12 hours next to his bed, knowing that this is it...this is the end.  She said her goodbye and we left for home.  I showered as quickly as I could and my husband was speeding us to the hospital, when the dreaded call came.  He had passed.

All of a sudden the going through the motions even though I don't know how to deal with it anymore, turned into the deepest pain I had ever experienced in my life.  It felt as if my whole heart had been ripped out of my body.  We arrived at the hospital shortly after his death and he was still warm.  I sat there holding his had until he was cold and then my husband told me that he though we should now leave him in peace.  I just couldn't tear myself away from him.  I knew his soul had left his body and the essence of him was no longer there, but the familiarity of his body just kept me there...holding his hand.  I had never seen a corpse in my life, but to me this was not a corpse...this was my father, my loving, special father, whom I adored even more than I even knew.  I was literally dragged away like a person that could not move by myself anymore.  We were standing outside saying goodbye to friends and the car was parked in front of the window of his hospital room.  I have no idea how long we were outside before we left, because I could see his body through the window and I was just focused on him.

Then came the numbness...the absolute numbness of feeling absolutely nothing...just nothing.  I sat in my parent's home with my mother and sister and I felt like I was not there.  I couldn't feel anything, because I was afraid that if I felt anything I would not be able to bare it.  Eventually I fell asleep that night, from pure and utter exhaustion.

The following morning I became obsessed.  Obsessed to give him the funeral that I believed he would want.  The right coffin, the right flowers, the music and scripture he wanted.  I wrote a eulogy for him, I went through millions of photographs and picked only the best ones.  This would keep me up until 3am in the mornings and make me fall asleep easily from exhaustion.

You might think that I am crazy, but the day before the funeral I became exited about the opportunity of viewing him before the funeral.  I was exited to be with him again, to see him again and to have him removed from that cold impersonal morgue.  He had a bunch of dried small roses he loved because it came from his brother when he was already very ill and I placed it in his hand.  He looked so peaceful...not as sick as the last time I saw him.  He had his favourite clothes on that was very carefully picked and he looked every bit as dashing and stunning as he always looked when he was still alive.

Then they closed the coffin!!!! and my world fell apart....I knew this was it...I would never ever see him again.  I went into feeling nothing mode again...numbness, just numbness, the tears came and I cried from my soul, but it felt like it was not me experiencing these feelings....inside I was NUMB to the core.  The funeral was everything I hoped it would be and then the dealing with I am still alive and my dad isn't anymore started to kick in.  I was in this phase for about 2 weeks, of not knowing how to just be alive without him in my life.  I felt it was unfair...now both of my fathers, my Heavenly Father and my biological father are in heaven and I still have to deal with life and all reality of not having him here for the first time in my 40 years of life.

Then I was diagnosed with breast cancer and a week later my sister as well and the natural process of grieving made way for the "I am glad he is not alive to have to deal with it" phase.  Well the numbness helped me quite a bit through the breast cancer experience that I am still currently in, because that sword over your head just never goes away.

My father requested that his ashes should be laid to rest with his father in Germany.  Due to me and my sister's many, many operations we were only able to go and make this wish a reality in July 2012.  Another funeral, this time with his family.  All I could think about was that I was leaving him behind so far away from me.  Not even his ashes would be close to me anymore.  This funeral stretched over a full day and by the end of it, I could not stand up straight anymore.  I was diagnosed with depression at some or other stage in this experience and was receiving medication.  I was told that depression was not a sign of weakness, but it was actually a sign of trying to be to strong for to long.

I have changed my outlook quite a bit since then.  I try and be happy as much as I can every day even with life's little trials and tribulations and I try to just keep my eye on our Heavenly Father and I have been able to bring back a spark to my life, but just writing this made me realise...the hurt still remains...the missing part is still there...I have not let go fully so that he can rest in peace.  Do you have any advise, because I sure could use it.  My angels constantly tell me to let the past be and to look to a happy here and now.  With their help I do manage to do that.  But a small thing like the scripture on my Facebook page...triggers all of this again.  How do you move beyond something like this?  Is it even possible?  I don't know?  I just trust in God and that He will lighten this pain for me.

Please share if you'd like what your experiences are, because there is something therapeutic about telling a story to someone else, and perhaps in this way we can help each other.

Prayer:

Dear God
Please teach us how to live with the hurt and the pain of loosing somebody that we deeply cared for in this life and still rejoice always. In Jesus Name. Amen

Today was such a blessing to me, after the rough week that I have been faced with.  My problems did not go away, but I turned around my attitude towards them.  We are such powerful beings, if we set our minds to something, it can be achieved.  We also have choices, constant choices, the whole day long.  The decisions we make influences the here and now.

I think the spiritual warfare prayers that I posted on this blog yesterday just showed me once more, I have been saved, because I have accepted Jesus as my Savior.  Nothing can touch me.  I have the Holy Trinity that loves me so much and the angels helping me on my path.  I am so protected.  All I have to do is ask.  The devil plays with our doubts and fears and that is how he manages to take our peace.

How beautiful is the quote I started this blog with today?  It just inspired me so much.  I got up this morning very concerned about one of my best friends landing up in hospital during the night, but praise the Lord she is back at home, because I decided to not stress but pray instead.  See I made the choice - I could drive myself insane with worry or I could lay it before God's feet and believe.

That made me adamant that nothing was going to steal my peace today.  My angels have been prompting me to earth myself more this whole week, if they ask me to do that they want me to get into nature in some or other way.  Gardening, a nice walk, a drive along the beach or anything that will bring me closer to mother nature and makes me ground myself.  Due to all of the stress I allowed to take over my life this week, I felt dreadful and did not even have the strength to have a walk with my Huskies.  Well, therein lay my whole problem.

I was stuck in an office or home the whole time feeling sorry for myself.  Well, not today.  I got up, went through my Facebook for inspiration, connected with some old friends on a page that connects school friends and then I was off to my mom's to clean the koipond. Best move I could have made, being close to flowing water, having the koifish that my father loved so much close to me and my moms lab trod-ding behind me as I worked to clean the pond.  With the sun on my face and the birds singing in the trees, as it was a glorious day here in Cape Town.  A friend of my mom came over and while the pond filled with water, we sat outside in the sun, having a nice glass of white wine and chatting away, as we woman do.  On my way home I decided I hadn't had enough yet, so I fetched my two Huskies and off we went into nature again.

I felt blessed the whole day, I have the most awesome handsome boys, a loving supporting husband, beautiful animals, God's creation all around me and a very caring mother and sister.  To top it all, I have been blessed with the most amazing in-laws as well.  We had our hick-ups, but today I am very honest when I say I don't even see them as in-laws anymore.  I could go on and on and on.  All of these blessing don't cost me anything and I just thanked God for what I had continually today and thanked Him that He would bring me out of the storm once again, by blessing me even more.

See I came to a profound realisation recently.  When are we unhappy?  When are we in storm phases in our lives?  Let's be honest many times it is, because we would like things differently than how God has planned it our for us.  We are knocking our heads against the wall, instead of rejoicing always.

You might say, yeah sure there she goes again, but it is not always possible.  I totally agree, but we always have the choice to be happy in any circumstance.  We should realise the blessings around us even in the worst times, even if we can't get ourselves to rejoice.  In the end we are only human.



So I decided to really surrender all today!  And that is one of the powerful three word scriptures again.  God can say a lot with few words.  Ponder over these words, because it means the same as "Your will be done".  We are believing in God unconditionally, that He will just have the best intentions for us always.  That we should see Him in any situation good or bad.  Either we are learning a lesson and receiving wisdom or we are receiving one of His many blessings in our life.  We need to thank Him for the good and the bad.  Because what we sometimes perceive as bad is a blessing in disguise.

I am going to say goodbye today with "The Lords Prayer", because this is the way that Jesus taught us to pray.

Wishing you lots of love, light and happiness together with many blessings!

As you all can see I am on quite a heavy topic tonight, but me and my extended family have really been attacked from all directions this week. I thought that I should share the tools that God gave me a long time ago to fight the spiritual war.  It is a fact, there is a daily struggle and war for our souls and mostly when we are closest to God, is when the biggest attacks happen on our lives to see if we will remain in the Lord or give in to Satan.  Satan does not like it when we keep our eyes focused on the Cross.  He will do anything to disturb your inner peace and take over your life, due to rage against the situation that you are in.

My friends the only way to fight this onslaught is through prayer.  I have a beautiful prayer that you can use, during those times that you feel that you are really being attacked by the enemy.  This war is part of our spiritual lives and we need to be equipped with our own weapon to make sure we enter the battle prepared.

I have experienced that this attack on me is worst when I am trying to bring people to the Lord, or grow their faith, or assist them with dealing with problems by following the Word.  I was actually very careless in not thinking about this when I started my Facebook page and this blog.  It is very clear that Satan does not like this at all.  I should have taken out my warfare prayers the day I started acting on this calling from God.

God does give us a promise of assisting us in defeating our enemy in today's daily text:
Deuteronomy 28:7
"The Lord will grant that the enemies who rise up against you will be defeated before you.  They will come at you from one direction but flee from you in seven."

In this text God gives us a promise of security.  He promises to break, confound and finally destroy your enemy.  We do not have to fear, Jesus has already died for our sins on the cross.  As we serve and obey God, He will bless us with the victory.

The prayer I would like to share with you can be used for yourself or for somebody that you would like to protect.  I keep a copy of it in my Bible and pray it daily in times that I am really being attacked.

The Blood

Today I come before You for _____________________ , who needs Your touch.  I plead the blood, Lord, and I am ever mindful that it is not our righteousness that saves, heals and keeps us.  For only You alone are righteous, wonderful Lord.  You alone are holy.  I plea Your blood over ________'s life right now for ___________________________ (healing salvation, cleansing, deliverance and help).  Thank you for the price You paid for ___________'s life.  Thank You that ______________ is so precious to You that You gave Your life for ________________________ .

Because of the power of the blood of Jesus Christ, I declare that bondage is broken today, in the mighty and precious Name of Jesus.

And for the price you paid to save us, heal us and deliver us all we can say is a million thanks Lord Jesus.  Thank You that there is power in the blood.

Amen

Remember to also put on the armor of God everyday and pray the blood of Christ over all of your loved ones to protect them from the daily spiritual warfare for their souls.

I hope you will forgive me, but I am also going to put this prayer up in my native tongue, Afrikaans.

Geestelike Oorlogvoeringsgebed

Hemelse Vader,
Ek prys en aanbid U.  Ek hernu vandag my verhouding me U en se opnuut dankie dat U my so liefhet dat U, U Seun Jesus Christus na die wereld toe gestuur het om vir my te sterf.  Dankie dat U deur Hom al my sondes vergewe het en ek deur die bloed van die Lam skoongewas is.  Dankie dat U my as U kind aangeneem het, U U oor my ontferm het en my die ewige lewe gegee het.

Dankie vir die oorwinning wat Jesus vir my aan die kruis behaal het en dat U Woord se "dat ek nou saam met Hom 'n plek in die hemel het". (Ef 2:6).  Ek neem nou posisie saam met Hom in en erken dat volgens U Woord Satan en allle bose geeste onder my voete is en aan my onderworpe is in die Naam van die Here Jesus Christus.

Ek trek vandag die volle wapenrusting volgens Ef 6: 10 - 18 aan.  Die helmet van verlossing, die borsharnas van vryspraak, die gordel van die waarheid en die bereidheid om die evangelie van vrede te verkondig.  Ek tel die skild van geloof op om die brandpyle van die vyand af te weer en neem die swaard van die Gees - die Woord van God in my hand.  Dankie Jesus, dat U elke mag en gesag van die bose deur die kruis ontwapen het en openlik gewys het dat hulle U gevangenes is en dat U oor hulle triomfeer.  (Kol 2:15).  Ek eien daardie oorwinning vandag vir my toe.

Ek verwerp alle aantygings, versoekings en enige ander planne wat Satan vir my lewe het.  Dankie dat daar geskryf staan dat "die wapern van ons stryd nie die wapens van die mens is nie, maar die kragtige wapens van God is wat vestings kan vernietig." (2 Kor. 10:4) Jesus, U het gese dat U aan ons die mag gegee het om op slange en skerpioene te trap en die vyand met al sy geweld te oorwin sonder dat iets ons leed sal aandoen.  (Luk. 10:19)  Daarom staan ek nou in daardie outoriteit en vernietig ek alle vestings wat Satan teen my denke, emosies, en wil opgerig het.  U het nie vir my 'n gees van vreesagtigheid gegee nie, maar van krag, liefde en selfbeheersing.  (2 Tim 1:7)

Ek breek die vestings wat Satan teen my liggaam gevorm het vandag af, en ek wy my liggaam aan U as die tempel van die Heilige Gees.
Ek breek elke vesting van depressie, hopeloosheid, apatie, twyfel en vrees af in Jesus se Naam.
Ek bind elke demoniese krag wat gestuur is om my te treiter en beveel julle in Jesus se Naam om weg te gaan.
Ek breek die krag van elke vloek wat oor my uitgespreek is en seen hulle wat my vervloek het.
Ek pleit die bloed van Jesus oor my en my geliefdes, oor ons werk en bedienings, oor ons finansies en gesondheid, oor ons huise, motors, troeteldiere en besittings.
Dankie Heilige Gees dat U my Leidsman, Trooster en Vriend is.  Ek gee my lewe aan U oor en weier om moedeloos te word.  U is die God van alle Hoop.
Dankie dat U ons altyd saam met Jesus laat triomfeer. (2 Kor 2:14)

Amen

I have used both these prayers very frequently and if you use it during very difficult times and in general, I can promise you God and His angel's protection.  Also remember when you meditate to ask the Holy Spirit and Archangel Michael to protect you with their light.

I would like to quote from Doreen Virtue's book  "The Angel Therapy Handbook" to describe Michael to you:

" Archangel Michael's name means "he who is as God" or "he who looks like God".  He's the archangel who releases the effects of fear from the planet and its inhabitants.  The patron of police officers, he gives all of us the courage and the backbone to follow our truth and fulfill our Divine mission.  Call upon Michael if you feel afraid or confused about your personal safety, your Heavenly purpose, or making a necessary life change.  You can also ask him to help you fix any mechanical or electrical problems.  In addition, Michael can assist you in remembering your life purpose, and then give you the courage to follow through on it."


If you would like to connect closer with your angels I would really recommend this book to you.  Doreen comes from a very religious place and is filled with the light.

God wanted me to give each of you reading this blog today these weapons to defeat the dark and stay in the light of the Holy Spirit.

Have a lovely day until next time!  Lots of love, light and happiness with many blessings to you.

Hi All!

I personally have been in a pretty dark place the last two days, after I told you all to rejoice always...It is as if God was testing whether I can practice what I preach.  Well, all I can say is I have tried to be in good spirits when I could.  I think we are all struggling in one way or another at this moment in time.  Times are hard, financially, having growing children, more and more demands on our time at work and at home. In these economic circumstances we cannot take the well deserved breaks that we really need to recharge if you have a family, because it is so expensive, there is more and more violence in our communities and in homes.  More and more divorces and dis functional families and children.  Then we are not even touching on how we and especially the corporate world is destroying the gift that God has so lovingly prepared for us to live in - "Mother Earth".  More and more atrocities are committed against animals to gain profit from them or they are abused as they are the scape goats of live's frustrations by sick people.  Our lives are also worth nothing to the corporate world.  All they are interested in are profits.  So what if the bees get extinct - really?, you are in the corporate world, highly intelligent and you don't know that there will not be any food source left for anybody in four years if the bees become extinct?  These are people that are telling themselves fairy tales in their heads to justify the way in which they make money.  Almost everything we eat has been either abused or is covered in a layer of poison, that kills us and animals.  These are the realities that we are faced with.

How do we deal with this?  Well, not easily and I am still figuring it out as I go along.  For one I know that we can not do it without God by our side and therefore I chose the text today... 
Proverbs 3:6:
God will direct your steps. 
We as human beings tend to live in the why and how.  We ask God why something happened that was not the way that we planned it to be and we ask Him how we should fix it.

That my friends is however not the way that we should think.  We should not ask how or why, we should just give God our problem and believe he will direct our steps out of whatever we are in.  This does not mean sit back and relax and let whatever be, just be.  He will make things happen and we need to act accordingly to resolve the issue and either there is a valuable lesson we need to learn from it, or we are better off after the storm has passed.  When we are in the storm we want to take the matter back into our own hands and make the path go in the direction we want it to go in, but God might have other plans for us.  Most of our hurt and problems usually stems from this conflict between what we want and what God has planned for us.

Therefore, I have now finally decided to surrender all and trust in His grace and mercy.  Furthermore, we have to believe that He is directing our steps in the right direction.  Our relationship with God is all about love, trust and believing in Him like a child.

Where all of the problems of the world are concerned....we can only do so much with what we have, but if we just do our little bit of spreading love, helping where we can standing up for innocent souls against the money system, then I believe, we are doing what we can.  Unless you are a billionaire with lots of money, that is all we as normal salary earners can do.  The truth is that if we live in love, we need to give and help - that is in our nature, but even this conflicts in us.  So do what you can for the world and then detach, because you are worth more spreading The Word and the Salvation of Jesus Christ as well as the love and light, than sitting in a corner worrying about something that you cannot change by yourself.  We need to focus on saving souls!

If you are a very sensitive person like I am, things really hurt you to your core and you think that you are fine after seeing a terrible picture of abuse, seeing people in complete poverty, seeing abuse and seeing souls throwing their lives away, because they could not deal with the harsh realities anymore and became alcoholics or drug addicts.  I work with many of these things on a daily basis as I work for a ministry trying to alleviate poverty where we can.  My boss who is a Minister, but has a doctorate as well always says, if we can just help one person a day, at least we have done something....  It is incredible how God does lead us to places where we learn profound truths.

Something I did not know was that even though we think that we are fine after experiencing something bad, we really are not.  Doreen Virtue, a beautiful soul, whom I dearly love for the love and light she spreads into the world, has just recently placed a post on Facebook which relates to this.  She says that we should cleanse our souls from this pain, because it does stay with us and we should distance ourselves as much as we can about things that is out of our control.

So how do we cleanse our souls from this pain.  We ask God and His angels to please assist us to clear all of these negative energies from our souls in meditation.  Archangel Michael should be called upon to cut the cords that connects us to this pain and any other pain from our past that we are still hanging on to.  If we carry around to much pain we cannot function in the way that we should.  If you do meditate always remember to surround your body with the white and holy light of the Holy Spirit, which will guard and keep you safe in every meditation together with Michael.

Dear God
Please help us to trust You as You direct our steps.  We as human beings always want to fix things ourselves, please show us which path You are leading us and which actions You require of us.  Thank you for all of Your love and blessings in our lives, in Jesus Name.


Amen

Hi All!  Hope you had a wonderful rest day...Sunday.  Tomorrow we are back to the busy week for all of us.  Please remember what the angels have been saying to us the whole weekend.  We need to enjoy the moment we are in more...forget about what happened yesterday or what will be happening in a minute.  Stop worrying...God is with you all of the time.

I hope you have tried my advise today of rejoicing always, now I am going to move on to the rest because it all goes together:  "Pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances: for this is the will of  God in Christ Jesus for you. 

This is all about a constant relationship with God.  Make it a habit to communicate with God constantly.  Ask Him a question you might have when the situation comes up, why wait until tonight to pray about it.  Talk to him in the moment.  You will become closer and closer to God and Jesus and The Holy Spirit, by constantly talking to them.  You might even be surprised when you get an answer quicker than you expect.

I constantly get messages from the Holy Trinity and my angels.  I actually want to cry if I think how many messages I missed because I was not aware of where to look for them.  I am going to give you one very sad, specific example.  In July 2011 after a long battle with prostate cancer, my dads cancer spread to his bones and spine and he landed up in hospital for the 4th time that year.  At this stage he could not walk unassisted and I was tending to him 24/7.  There was a tumor growing against his spine which caused a short circuit to his brain.  In July he ended up in hospital, but I did not think it was as serious this time around and I was in quite high spirits.  Tuesday night I was driving home from the hospital and I was listening to the radio.  First the song "In the living years" was playing on the radio and I spoke to God and said that I don't understand, was He trying to tell me something? I said that I don't understand my dad was not so bad this time around... ???  The next song that started playing was "Dance with my father again".  What are the odds?  What radio station would play songs like that one after the other?  I went home and told my mom and husband, something was very wrong, because God told me that it was time for my father to die.  They told me not to worry, I was just tired and stressed out.

The next morning I arrived at hospital in good spirits and was met outside the ward by my dad's Oncologist.  He told me to let the family know that it was time....they had blood tests done and my dad's liver was shutting down and all of his organs would follow.  My father passed away on the 11th.

God warned me to prepare me for what was about to happen and to ensure that it would not be such a shock for me when it happened.  Since then I have been talking to God and my angels constantly and I am living a much happier live, no matter what situation I am in.  Good or bad I have been taught to enjoy the moment I am in.  I know now that God is part of my life every minute of the day and not only on Sundays.

Try and bring God into your life constantly during the day and experience how He will start to communicate with you in His own special way.  Thank him for every little blessing you receive from Him and you will be blessed more and more in your spiritual life.  Just be aware of your surroundings so you don't miss the messages.  We have a living God, He is not just a God that resides in the Bible, He is all around us.

Dear God

Please help my friends to have a special relationship with You, where they constantly involve You in their lives through all forms of communication, so their lives can be more for filled and happy.  In Jesus Name.
Amen.

Yes, I am back with the same scripture....in my dreams last night I was told by archangel Gabriel, that I did not do enough justice to this scripture last night and I have to re-visit it to make this a bit clearer than I did.  He told me to just use one piece a day and bring the necessary justice to it and he will be giving me the guidance for each part.
Now hold on to your hats.....I am starting with:  "REJOICE ALWAYS".

The image that came to my mind last night was.....drum roll...... The Sound of Music.  I do not know how many of this current generation has seen this movie, but as a child I was in awe with it.  My poor boys were forced to sit through it...LOL.

I have German roots, even though I was born and grew up in South Africa.  As my father frequently visited his family in Germany and sometimes took us along as well, I was fortunate to tour most of Europe.  South Africa in it self is absolutely beautiful and the scenery here is amazing, but the most beautiful place that I have experienced in my lifetime has been Salzburg in Austria.

This is where "The Sound of Music" was filmed and I even took The Sound of Music Tour on one of my visits there.  Oh my goodness what beauty.  It actually takes your breath away.  I am not going to give my age away, but this was in my teens and I still remember it as vividly as if it was yesterday.  Those mountains, the city itself and surrounding nature....it makes your just sit in awe at the beauty of God's creation.

OK, so you might ask how do your bring The Sound of Music and "REJOICE ALWAYS" together.
It is all about the scene very early in the movie, where the children became afraid of lightning and thunder and went to Maria's room for comfort.  She then sang the following song to them and I am going to quote it, as this was to remind them of the good things and made them move away from the dark feeling of fear.

My Favorite Things by Maria
Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things

Cream colored ponies and crisp apple strudels
Doorbells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
These are a few of my favorite things

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
Silver white winters that melt into springs
These are a few of my favorite things

When the dog bites
When the bee stings
When I'm feeling sad
I simply remember my favorite things
And then I don't feel so bad

This is the message I had to bring across.  It is not easy to stay in the good feelings.  This is one of our biggest challenges in life to stay in the light and rejoice always.  Why don't you think of all the nice things that brings joy to you like Maria did in this song so when one of the dark emotions comes to you again you can shift your vibration immediately.  It might be listening to your favorite song, visiting you favorite coffee shop, walking your dogs on the beach or in nature....I can carry on until tomorrow morning.  I don't know what is it that centers you, but put a list together to action in all of the circumstance in your life to remain in the Light of the Holy Spirit.

I do not know if you are familiar with the book and movie The Secret, but in it you will find a feelings chart of good and bad feelings and to REJOICE ALWAYS we need to stay in the good feelings of this chart.  If you feel yourself moving to the bad feelings grab your list of things you love and if you even just go there in your imagination, it will lift your spirit immediately.

Here is the chart I am talking about:

 

 We rejoice when we stay in the following good feelings: love, gratitude, joy, passion, happiness, excitement, joyful expectation, hope and satisfaction.

We are not rejoicing when we stay in the following bad feelings: boredom, arrogance, worry, criticism, blame, anger, revenge, hate, resentment and guilt.

If you look at this chart and see what the bad feelings are it opens your mind to what a big task it is to move yourself back to the good feelings as God expects us to ALWAYS Rejoice.

I have been applying this as much as I can in my life for quite a while now and I must say in the beginning it was hard work, but it is becoming more and more rewarding as it becomes second nature.  Why should we stay in the bad feelings if we can enjoy our lives no matter what?  I hope that you will take this message to heart as it was sent to you with lots of love from the Holy Trinity and God's angels!

Dear Lord
Thank you for the blessing to be alive.  Thank you for all the blessings You have given us and are all around us to enjoy. Please help us to "rejoice always", by moving away from the bad feelings and enjoy life the way You have intended it to be. In Jesus Name. Amen.

Hey, hey it's Friday!

This has been quite a long but fruitful week for me.  Full of life's joys and challenges, but busy and accomplishing a lot.  I can feel it tonight.  I don't know if it is because our bodies know that we can shut down from work for two days and just enjoy our family life for a bit....but on a Friday I am usually really tired. We all look forward to not getting up in the middle of the night, get dressed in 2 seconds, fly out the door, drive to work, work, drive home, feed your family, a bit of quite time, sleep and then tomorrow we rinse and repeat.

A lot of people call it "a rat race".  This is where this scripture I have chosen for my blog today comes into play.  I thank God for continually working with me through Jesus, The Holy Spirit and His angels.  If it wasn't for that, I would most probably still believe that day to day life is a rat race and I would not enjoy or appreciate everything as much as I do.  The last few months have been like a fast forward in my spiritual growth, I have been guided by the Holy Spirit to very specific scriptures, sights, messages, blogs and the one after the other YouTube video.  It was as if I am willed on to learn as much as I can in a day.

The scripture very much sums up what God expects from us in our daily lives.  It might look like a piece of cake, but He has shown me that it takes a total change in your daily routine and life.

I am going to break it down piece by piece to show you what He has shown me He really expects of us -it is not as easy as it seems.

"Rejoice always"......
In easy terms be full of joy, happiness, hope, love etc...when?   ALWAYS
Easy...let me tell you not so easy at all.  God has made it clear that He would like is to always be happy no matter what the circumstances.  That is His wish for us.  He does not want us to suffer.  He wants us to stay in the Light all of the time.  This means that if you move into the shadow emotions you have to very much concentrate to move out of the shadows into the Light.  Jealousy, hate, anger, frustration etc are the dark shadowy emotions that has nothing to do with rejoicing and as God expects us to rejoice ALWAYS, we need to implement it in any way to move from the dark emotions.  If we are in the dark nobody likes us and can see the Light within us.  Only if you are in the Light, all of the time people will want to be like you and accept Jesus as their Savior and receive the Holy Spirit.  As we also talk to one another more and more with our emotions and thoughts these days this is becoming more and more important....

Challenge No. 1 - No matter what you are doing in the next week I would like to challenge you to be in the Light as much as you can and I would love to hear what your feedback is in this regard.

"Pray without ceasing,"....
This I see as being in continual contact with God, praying, talking to Him, being aware of Him with you all the time and making Him part of all of our day.  Not just Sundays, or in the morning or at night.  He wants us to have a true relationship with Him and you will be surprised how much you will see that He is with you all the time, when you involve Him in everything you do.  Trust your intuition....He will give you answers through the Holy Spirit or the angels.  That little voice inside of you keeping you upright and in the right place is Him or of Him.

Challenge No.2 - Speak to God continually every day as if he is next to you all of the time.  Just sharing your thoughts or praying.  You don't need to say it out loud and make everybody think you have lost your marbles (although I sometimes do, do it...LOL).  He knows all of your thoughts so have a conversation with Him and His angels in your mind.

"Give Thanks in all circumstances"....
We need to be continually be thankful for the smallest blessing we receive.  Even to see, breath, hear, talk, the birds singing in the trees, the sun, the rain....EVERYTHING.  Don't only be thankful, but thank Him continually as something comes into your mind and have gratitude for His amazing Grace!

Challenge No.3 - Look at the smallest thing that you use, see, feel, hear, smell  ......realise how much we actually have to be thankful for and have gratitude for.

"for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you..."
All of the above is what God expects of us in Christ Jesus.  Amen

Have an awesome weekend!

Oh my goodness...the week is always so much more rushed than the weekends.  I have had no chance to post the post of the day to date.  I guess it was not just because of me being extremely pushed at work to do three people's work and with stress of all the deadlines to be met all around me, I have really been struggling with lives little trials and tribulations.

Monday, was a nightmare to me, I woke up not even wanting to get out of bed....I am just so tired...and the hormone pills I have to drink to keep the cancer out of my body just leaves it's scares sometimes and plays havoc with my emotions.  I am just never, ever going to complain about it, because in God's Grace I overcame breast cancer with a full mastectomy and reconstruction.  15 hours of anesthetic in 3 months, loads of intravenous antibiotics and pain killers.  I cannot complain about this though, because I am alive, I am cancer free, I did not need radiology and I did not need chemo.  Praise the Lord for carrying me through that all!  Thank you that I am still here on earth to see my children grow up, to love my husband, to enjoy my dogs and our looong walks, to have my mother and sister and my in-laws whom I dearly love in my life and the wonder of every one of God's beautiful creations.  What I have come to realise this week, very profoundly I might add, was that the most special blessings in life you cannot buy with any currency.  We receive it paid in full as blessings in every day we are blessed with.  Remember to thank God for all blessings.

Yesterday, I was just in such a beautiful place, every person I encountered at word and around work were just in a good place and I have such beautiful experiences, I was so focused and content even though I know that I have a lot to contend with in my personal life.  It was easy to appreciate everything and just have a lovely day...until I got home.  All I can say is it's not easy to have a teenage son and to be worried about his personal salvation as they test everything!

Today it has been a year since I left my father in his grave in Germany and he had his final burial.  I keep on thinking the the grief is not so bad anymore, but on days like these you just realise that it isn't really better you have just come to deal with it more than before and then it is like a scab that falls of and the old wound shows again.

You might ask so why is she sharing all of these things with the world?  Well the answer to this question is, that if I was not saved by Jesus dying for me on the cross and The Holy Spirit giving me peace beyond my comprehension and God carrying me through all of the emotional ups and down in my life I would have surely gone insane by now.  The Holy Trinity keeps me centered, keeps me thankful for all the blessings I have and pulls me back to a positive space of enjoying each moment that I have been blessed with on this earth.

Know that no matter how many things come into our lives that challenges our religion, God will ALWAYS be there for us not matter what and with that knowledge we need to be thankful for everything positive in our lives and focus on that and let Him worry about our challenges after praying to Him and leaving our package with Him.

Dear God,

Thank you so much for ALWAYS being with us and carrying us through the hard times.  Please help us to focus on the blessings and leave our little packages with You.  Even though it is easy to say these words You know that it is difficult for us not to take the package of worries back, please help us to believe like little children.  I pray this in Jesus Name. Amen

God IS Love

The other day I was driving home from work and the car in front of me had a number plate 1 Joh 3.  Well needless to say I came home and ran to my Bible to see where the angels are leading me to.  This whole text had a lot of valuable news for me and you, and it would be great if you read the full text.  Usually when I get a text in this manner I read the full book of the Bible.

Very ironically, I did explain to my husband the previous night that as a young girl I sat in church one day and the cloth hanging from the pulpit stated: GOD IS LOVE.  Being the person that I am I took this literally and visualised that what I felt for my mother, father and sister, WAS GOD.  Later in live it also became what I felt for my husband and then my two sons (THUS HOW AWESOME IS GOD IF HE IS THE CONNECTION BETWEEN ALL OF US?).  Any connection I feel that is special on this earth IS GOD.  This has always kept me close to God, because I always visualised the connection with anybody that meant anything to me to be GOD.

If you allow your angels to come close to you, you feel an euphoric LOVE that you cannot describe to anybody.  EVEN THIS IS GOD.  Any good feeling of the light actually IS God.  Think of it it if you read -  1 Kor 13, there is a whole description of love.  All positive feelings like joy, hope, peace, grace and mercy and the list goes on, come from love and thus in my minds-eye IS GOD.  Everything that is dark, and evil is from satan - fear, anxiety and all of the negative feelings.

I will always remind you to stay in the Light.  This means to remain in the good feelings no matter what, because in this manner you will send out God's love and you will always have God with you in the good and the bad times .....because....GOD IS LOVE.

The text for today is:
1 John 4:8
He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love. 

If you send the following greeting:  I send you light and love and many blessings....it is very powerful!
You are sending them the love of the Holy Spirit, Jesus and God and believe me if you come into contact with the Light and with God, you want more...thus we are leading people to God and to accept Jesus as their Saviour.

The blessings part I will leave for tomorrow....have a beautiful day of rest and please stay in LOVE....because....GOD IS LOVE.

Lots of love, light and blessings to all of you.

Hi All!

The reason I am here and taking this first step in putting my thoughts in writing, is because the Messengers of God (My Angels) have been prodding me in this direction for many, many moons.  I guess I have come full circle and I am now at a place in my life that I believe that I should share what I have been taught by my experiences in my live.  I aim bring people together who are sharing in the same situations to assist one another.  My dream is to see this blog become a place where Christians can meet, share thoughts, pray together and help each other to grow in religion.  I guess that is putting a very complex thought into a very short paragraph.

A very wise friend of mine told me an awesome truth when I was very young and I still love to refer to it. This friend told me that life was to short to learn from your own mistakes, you need to learn from other's mistakes, as well.

My home language is Afrikaans as I live in South Africa and although my blog will be mostly in English I will also write blogs in Afrikaans as I am guided.  As I am from German decent, I might even use the German language as guided.

I am also going to create a Facebook page - here I will be posting uplifting quotes, a scripture of the day that I have been guided to for all of us and I would love to encourage you to read the posts of the other people on the page and if you feel guided to connect with them and give them advice or just support them in some or other way, please to do so.

We all have experienced things in our lives that have taught us very important lessons in life, all to develop our souls to become more like Jesus.  This should be our goal.  We should always live in His Light, believe in His Truths and search for righteousness on the Earth.  Many staunch Christians might not believe in angels giving us messages and guiding us on our way if we wish to, but I do believe that they do. I have been experiencing it in my life for a long time, but I have only became aware that it was them trying to attract my attention recently.  We should no see them as gods.  They are part of God, messengers of His Word and there to protect us and assist us in leading us to our soul's purpose and assisting us, if you request so.  We have our own will to not connect to them, but we all can as they are with us all of the time anyway, waiting to help if we want them to.

Let me make myself very clear that God, Jesus and The Holy Spirit is what I believe in.  Furthermore, I believe that our salvation comes from accepting Jesus into our lives as we can only receive the Holy Spirit and  the Eternal Life through accepting Jesus into our lives.  I aim to let His Light (Holy Spirit) shine through me and what I do, to bring more people to Him.  His angels are one of His blessings that brings, love, light and happiness into our lives.  They are very high energy beings, with so much love in them that they can bring you to tears, due to the pure love radiating from them.  They have such a sense of humor and they are always concerned about you and will never judge you.  Nobody has the right to judge anybody accept God.

This morning when I woke up I was told that today was the day to start this blog!  I then told God that I was not a theologian and not qualified to do this type of thing.  He then told me through His angels that He will guide me and that this is exactly what He needs.  He needs to connect Christians with another to help each other and spread the Light.  He loves us very much and He needs us to assist one another in hard times and develop our souls even in good times, actually especially in good times.  If we seek God in good times there would be no need for bad times.  Yes, we have things that happens in our lives that are inevitable, like loosing our loved ones for instance, but He wants all of our needs to be met to grow in every aspect of our lives.  All we need to receive this Grace is to believe like little children, unconditionally.

The text in my mind when I woke up this morning was,  
Matthew 6:33 -
But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

I have said a lot in a few words and I will break down all of the above thoughts as we go along.  If there is anything that you would like to add please do so.

Dear Lord!  You have guided me to start this blog and a Facebook for you to guide Christians to one another to help each other, pray for each other and start special friendships.  I leave this in Your Hands. In Jesus's Name. Amen.