Oh my goodness...the week is always so much more rushed than the weekends.  I have had no chance to post the post of the day to date.  I guess it was not just because of me being extremely pushed at work to do three people's work and with stress of all the deadlines to be met all around me, I have really been struggling with lives little trials and tribulations.

Monday, was a nightmare to me, I woke up not even wanting to get out of bed....I am just so tired...and the hormone pills I have to drink to keep the cancer out of my body just leaves it's scares sometimes and plays havoc with my emotions.  I am just never, ever going to complain about it, because in God's Grace I overcame breast cancer with a full mastectomy and reconstruction.  15 hours of anesthetic in 3 months, loads of intravenous antibiotics and pain killers.  I cannot complain about this though, because I am alive, I am cancer free, I did not need radiology and I did not need chemo.  Praise the Lord for carrying me through that all!  Thank you that I am still here on earth to see my children grow up, to love my husband, to enjoy my dogs and our looong walks, to have my mother and sister and my in-laws whom I dearly love in my life and the wonder of every one of God's beautiful creations.  What I have come to realise this week, very profoundly I might add, was that the most special blessings in life you cannot buy with any currency.  We receive it paid in full as blessings in every day we are blessed with.  Remember to thank God for all blessings.

Yesterday, I was just in such a beautiful place, every person I encountered at word and around work were just in a good place and I have such beautiful experiences, I was so focused and content even though I know that I have a lot to contend with in my personal life.  It was easy to appreciate everything and just have a lovely day...until I got home.  All I can say is it's not easy to have a teenage son and to be worried about his personal salvation as they test everything!

Today it has been a year since I left my father in his grave in Germany and he had his final burial.  I keep on thinking the the grief is not so bad anymore, but on days like these you just realise that it isn't really better you have just come to deal with it more than before and then it is like a scab that falls of and the old wound shows again.

You might ask so why is she sharing all of these things with the world?  Well the answer to this question is, that if I was not saved by Jesus dying for me on the cross and The Holy Spirit giving me peace beyond my comprehension and God carrying me through all of the emotional ups and down in my life I would have surely gone insane by now.  The Holy Trinity keeps me centered, keeps me thankful for all the blessings I have and pulls me back to a positive space of enjoying each moment that I have been blessed with on this earth.

Know that no matter how many things come into our lives that challenges our religion, God will ALWAYS be there for us not matter what and with that knowledge we need to be thankful for everything positive in our lives and focus on that and let Him worry about our challenges after praying to Him and leaving our package with Him.

Dear God,

Thank you so much for ALWAYS being with us and carrying us through the hard times.  Please help us to focus on the blessings and leave our little packages with You.  Even though it is easy to say these words You know that it is difficult for us not to take the package of worries back, please help us to believe like little children.  I pray this in Jesus Name. Amen